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A Story of a Bipolar Babe on World Bipolar Day

On this day I recognize all of the people in the world that live with bipolar disorder. I feel every one of us has a very important story to share with the world. It is often in the depths of our depression and challenges where we often realize the pleasure of just being able to live through another day. I have truly learned that from my darkest of moments, I am able to appreciate the most simple and beautiful things of this world. My appreciation for life is beyond measure and to be able to embrace a life that is extraordinary is my most valued triumph.

“No matter what our challenges, we can all live extraordinary lives.” ~Andrea AKA Bipolar Babe

 

Musings of My Memoir Waiting to be Born

I have been writing a book…for 10 years. I know in my heart that this is one thing that I can and will achieve. This is one of my most valuable dreams – to write my own memoirs about my lived experience with bipolar disorder. 

I have written over 100 pages so far, mostly in 2005, and I wanted to share a small piece that I wrote over 10 years ago, after my second, and last hospitalization. This was before Bipolar Babe, the Bipolar Disorder Society of BC and even before I truly knew that I possessed an advocate's voice inside my heart.

Year 2005, age 28 years old. 

"I realize that some people will think that I am crazy to share my entire and unedited story with the world in the form of a book.  It would be just plain wrong to deny that I have been insane, and writing my memoirs has probably been the most sane thing that I have ever done.  If there is anything that I hope people will take away from my story is having them realize that they do not have to be afraid.  Many ask if I am angry with those that turned a blind eye. Angry?  No.  Disappointed, of course.  However, I finally have a will to live and offer a sincere thank-you to those few special people who were there to support me during the most difficult time of my life. 

For now, I will retreat to another country, but I will never let go of my political dreams.  I accept that I was just never meant to have a sugar coated life; instead, I am someone that has been given a life of adversity, which has actually created a drive within my being that cannot be overcome. I truly feel that I am blessed to have been equipped with impeccable survival skills and a true compassionate understanding of human nature. 

Many ask, why do I want to expose my story to the world?  It is not for the purpose of self-glorification, but I hope to inspire others to listen to the many more personal stories that exist, and help fight the stigma that people with mental illness are forced to endure. 

As I journey on to South Korea, I know that my travels will only add to my many valuable and colorful life experiences and I wait in great anticipation for my plane to soar into the skies.  I may be cursed by this illness, but I am blessed to know what it feels like to be a 'God', however; I also know the reality of experiencing a time where I was truly condemned to hell. I have faith that there is meaning in this living paradox."

…to be continued…

Thanks for reading… xo Andrea