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Embracing all that is Uncertain and Temporary..then we can Truly Begin to Live

As of late, I have been pondering and accepting that life is uncertain on so many fronts, not just for those who have a mental illness. Relationships fail, finances falter, our health fades and the certainty of life that we once believed in seems to unravel as we spiral through life.

Why the Ponder Things Uncertain?

As I manage our Charity, the Bipolar Disorder Society of British Columbia (BDSBC), I have realized that I have gotten myself into an uncertain situation. This is not necessarily a negative thing. There are no guarantees of financial gains and the journey is wholly entrepreneurial in many senses. I left my government job over one year ago, and people often wonder why I gave up such a secure and financially viable position. I was simply not happy and life is too valuable to be unchallenged and unmotivated. I tell myself that I can do all I am able with the abilities that I possess. Still I believe my future is not mine to determine and I can plan for everything and anything in all aspects of my life, but life itself often has other plans.

There will be Great Rewards 

Life is undetermined and unpredictable, and we have to accept that there will be pain and pitfalls, but more wonderfully there will be great rewards. I am in the classrooms educating youth on mental health and molding young minds, facilitating healing and growth in support groups, and doing the everyday work to keep this Society reputable and viable. It is the first time in my life where work does not feel like work. I wake up every day and know that my “work” day will be rewarding and fulfilling. There is always one more hand to hold through a tough time or at a hospital visit, another person to encourage, and most of all, the hopes of saving another life by simply providing the services we offer to the people who need it most. We recently published our BDSBC Annual Report, and as I read it, I see the smiling members of the Board on the pages, and I am touched, moved and inspired by the people that care about the Society. It is even more touching to know they truly believe in me.

Approaching the Uncertain with Open Arms

Whether you are starting up a new business or a non-profit, selling or buying your home, taking a chance on a new love or filing for divorce, we must embrace that everything is uncertain, and every single thing we see, touch, hear or feel is temporary. It will all fade, falter and cease to exist one day, and yes, so will all of us. I make this statement to encourage you to really live, to make sure you write that book you have been putting off for years, make that return phone call to your mother when she has already called twice that day, embrace your pet and spend time playing with them, and please do lean over to your partner’s ear and tell them that you love them tremendously.

When we embrace all that is temporary and uncertain, then we can all truly begin to live.

An Amazing Bipolar Babe Day

Today was an amazing day!  Over the past two days I have conducted four presentations totaling over 140 students.  It has been quite the feat to take on such a task but I feel I have handled it with ease and I have been truly enjoying doing what I do best – being the stigma busting bipolar babe.  I was in awe with the written feedback from the kids today.  Especially the feedback that was given by one young girl who shared that her Aunt has bipolar disorder.  She wrote that she better understands what her loved one has been going through now and she feels more empathetic and understanding of her Aunt’s situation.  She also shared that she has never been more inspired by a presenter before and she admired my courage and bravery.  Hearing this from a 16 year old year truly made my day.

Another young girl also contacted me from the local youth psych ward and requested to see me.  I had spent some time with her previously but did not hear back for a week or two and I was disappointed as I felt we really connected but there was no follow up.  When I heard her smiling voice tonight asking me to have another visit with her, I was more than touched.

The night was topped off by facilitating the women’s group and we had two new participants attend.  It was amazing to hear each woman share about their week.  It is times like these when I am so grateful that the Bipolar Disorder Society of BC exists.  The demand for the women’s group has been impressive.  There are new faces rotating through the group every week and tonight was simply wonderful.

I am so blessed, happy and grateful for all those that I have shared my story with and thankful to those that have touched my life immensely.